Contortion Series

What does it mean to contort? How were we raised to contort? Who do you contort for? How do you contort? I contort myself in ways for anyone who wants it. I contort myself to fit for the desirability of any man with a penis. I contort myself to become fuckable. When I was thirteen, I fell in love with the girl who taught me how to contort. How to arch my back, hold my stomach. How to position for photos for men on the internet: decapitation. Sexual teaching or rather sexual traumatization as a child. 

Now we relearn contortion.

Subconscious contortion is beautiful. How ugly can I be when I sprawl out on my bed in the mornings, how unattractive can I appear when I hunch over my back. I refuse to bend out my ass. 

I don’t think of this contortion… 

                                                              …when I’m safe with you. 

We don’t need a hip swing or stay on beat,

we throw ourselves around    

                  dancing until we fall down.